Current mood:

stressed

rainy day.. feelin restless again..
it's been rainin since last nite.. then stopped but it rained again in e afternoon.. guess these few wks will b rainin everyday..

i had resigned.. must b surprised rite? somethin happened at home.. got to help out for 2 wks.. e company dun have time to wait for me for 2 wks cos e accounts asst. will b leavin this mth end.. no choice.. got to search for another job lor.. i'm not optismistic at all.. my elder sis's side are havin alot of problems.. need to babysit for her for 2 wks.. heard tat her father-in-law had been admitted to hospital again and her in-laws' got to go under renovation.. which is y she need my help.. perhaps it's very silly to quit my job jus to babysit for her.. but well, it's okay w me.. this company is not bad under e admin manager but their accountin system is kind of slow.. every morn issue delivery orders and invoices for e store to ship out their gds then afterwhich, do some filin.. go and buy lunch then rest until 1pm.. e gal also nvr teach me other things than delivery orders and invoicin.. so everyday was kind of very free in e afternoon.. then they always chit chat here and there.. nvr really see them workin.. haha.. i guess my dear dear will b very angry if he knows tat i had resign.. i dunno how to tell him or face him..

now, i felt very restless in everythin.. very very restless.. i dun feel like doin anythin even my jewelry.. i couldnt draw out a single design.. felt very frustrated.. i need a pillar to lean on.. i felt very depressed.. i dunno who i can talk to, to solve my problems.. perhaps i'll take up a part-time job first.. e interview for emirate airways will b on the 6th and 7th jan.. i havent go for e photoshoot for a formal full-length photo.. i had check my bank balance.. left only 200 bucks.. i guess i have to be very very careful w my spendin until i get a new job.. i'm stress..